Goodbye 2011

  So I know it's not quite the end of the year just yet but today I've just been reflecting a lot and I just decided to make this my last post of the year. As most of you know, this year was pretty difficult for me but would I change it, absolutely not. We moved to Morton in March and I'm pretty sure that I have never cried as much as I did when all the boxes were unpacked and my friends and family left us here all by ourselves. I didn't think that I would ever adjust to being away from Arthur, Lamar and I both grew up there and all our friends and family were still there. I just felt like we were missing out on so much. I never thought that this move would have been so difficult, for some reason I thought that things wouldn't change that much, friendships would stay the same, we'd go to back to Arthur to visit and it would be like we never left. Wow, was I wrong. Most of our friendships have stayed the same but unfortunately some have changed but that's to be expected and I realize that now. Moving is never easy and things will never stay the same, I wish someone would have told me that before I had to figure it out on my own. But with this move I've had to step out and do things that I thought I couldn't do. Was it easy to put myself out there? No it was not, but I also learned that I can do it and it's not always going to be easy but I also can't sit in my house and become the weirdo neighbor that never leaves her house ;)
      This past year has brought Lamar and I closer, we've learned to rely on each other more then what we ever did before. I feel like we've learned to have fun with each other again and we're ok with hanging out with just each other. Yes I know that we've been married for 9 years but when you have kids and work that seems to get in the way sometimes, so yes we've learned to become friends again and not just a married couple. Our relationship is the best it's ever been and I don't think we'd be here today if it wouldn't have been for us moving. I'm so thankful that God has called us to help with this church plant. I feel like I'm slowly, very slowly becoming the woman that God wants me to be and I don't think I would have been able to do that if we continued to live in Arthur. Not that living in Arthur is a bad thing but you just get stuck in a rut and well, God likes to shake things up every now and then ;) As I look back over this year, it definitely hasn't been easy but it's been an amazing thing to see God work His way in our lives. I'm ready to put this year behind us and see what 2012 has in store for us. I have a feeling 2012 is going to be another year of changes but I say bring it on. I'm ready for it :)