So as I sit hear trying to figure out what to blog about, I've decided that I'm going to blog about something that I've been struggling with lately, don't worry it's nothing to horrible ;) Well basically with everything that's going on in  the world, earthquakes, tsunami's(sp) and all this stuff it's very obvious that the end times are near. Now of course, it could still be another 20 years before God returns or it could be 20min. and my thing is am I actually ready for when He returns. Have I done enough and lived my life for Him? Have I given myself fully and completely over to Him? Or have I just not done enough because I really don't want to be left behind. I want God to look at me and say "well done my good and faithful servant." I just don't want to live in fear or be fearful of the unknown. I know that satan is just trying to come in and discourage me and make me question my christianity and I hate that I allow him to discourage me so that's when I just need some extra prayer. In my heart I do know where I'm going, I think it's just all the uncertainity of everything that's going on and  I just don't like uncertainity, just tell me what's going to happen and I'll be good ;) Although I know it doesn't work that way. I think maybe I have to much time on my hands and my mind just wanders, I think I need a hobby. Sometimes I wish I could just shut my mind off. Anyway, so that's what's on my mind today sorry for being such a "debbie downer"

Getting Adjusted

   So it's day 4 since we've moved and everyone seems to be adjusting just fine, and yes that includes me. It seems so weird because I'm not as emotional as I thought I would be. Yeah Sunday and Monday was really hard but other then that it hasn't been to hard for me, of course now that I say that I'll probably get slapped in the face with a flood of emotions. I also realized that I think I'm ok being by myself, now of course I miss my friends and I can't wait to make new ones but I really do feel ok being here by myself.....we'll see what I say next week about being by myself ;) Gosh I sound like I'm bi-polar. I've also realized to depend on Lamar a lot more, not sure if how he feels about that....haha j/k Right now I don't really have anyone else to go to but Lamar and I think it's a good thing, of course I don't want to be that weird couple that we never hang out with other people and we're always together....etc I just like the fact that we've gotten a lot closer :)

The New House

   Today I decided to post pictures of the house because as much as I would LOVE for all my friends to come and see my, I know that won't happen and that's ok. So anyway, I just wanted to post some pics so at least they could see where we're living now. I did realize that the house needs some serious color, the only room in the house that has color is the kitchen and that's an ugly mauve-burgandy-reddish color and it's just really ugly. So of course I'm ready to paint but that's going to have to wait since the cash flow is a little low but I don't mind waiting because I do honestly love the house. I have to say that I think the ugliest room in the house is the guest room, sorry Amy & Eric, it has nasty green carpet with white panel walls and well it's just ugly. Unfortunately that room won't get done right away, I want to get everything upstairs painted first. Sorry about the rambling on and on about the house I just don't have much else to say.

Trying to find joy

  So today wasn't too bad, I finished unpacking my stuff in the bedroom and Lamar is finishing up stuff in his office so we are pretty well unpacked, I love that feeling. Now I'm kind of at a loss as what to do, I think I can only last about 1 week with not a whole lot to do but after that I will be going crazy. Anyway, so Carolyn called me today just to see how things were going and all that good stuff, I did have to fight back the tears as I was talking to her, it just seems so surreal that I'm here and all my peeps are 2 hrs. away. But anyway, after I got off the phone with Carolyn I was just thinking that I really need to find some joy because right now I feel like I don't have any joy at all. I want to be joyful no matter where I'm at and God has given Lamar and I this amazing opportunity and I don't want to let it get away from me. I know it's only been a few days since we've moved and yes, it's going to take a little bit to adjust but I want to also enjoy these first moments that we have here too and not continuously wish that I was back at home in Arthur. I just have to keep telling myself that this will get easier and yes, I will find friends to hang out with. I'll find ladies to have coffee with and go shopping with but until then, I will try to convince Lamar to sit and have coffee with me in the morning, even though he hates coffee. It's just hard for me to put myself out there and ask someone that I don't know that well if they want to come over for dinner or coffee or just to hang out but I know that's what I have to do if I want to make new friends. I am looking forward to going home in 2 weeks, that weekend can't come quick enough for me.

Saying Goodbye

  Well we are all alone, just Lamar, myself, and the kids and I'm not going to lie, it's really hard right now. I was doing so good and then Angie left and I realized none of our friends and family is with us anymore :( I really want to be strong but right now, I just can't I feel like I just have to let it all out. This is the most difficult thing I've ever done, I've never lived away from my friends and family and yes it's going to take some getting used to. I know I'll get used to it but it's going to take some time. I did have a little surprise this afternoon, Drew, Heather, and Heidi stopped in, I was so excited to see them. They brought us some wine so of course we had to have a little toast to the new house :) So that was the high-light of my day. So I'm done for right now, I feel like such a debbie downer so I guess I'll say goodbye until tomorrow.

We have officially moved

Well we are finally all moved in and pretty well unpacked. Apparently Lamar and I had way more clothes then I thought so yeah we are definitely going to have to get more dressers. I can't wait to start decorating and painting and all the good stuff, so hopefully we will sell our house soon so we can start decorating a lot quicker ;) I am so thankful for everyone who came to help, they rocked. Now I'm ready to put my feet up and relax, so I'm saying goodnight all :)

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    We found out last night that some of the people that are moving to Peoria with us sold their house, now I tried really hard to fight back the tears but I couldn't fight it. I wanted to be happy for them but at the same time I was a bit angry too because they didn't have their house on the market that long, we've had ours on the market since last summer. I cried out to God why haven't we sold our house, are we really not supposed to be going to Peoria? Are we doing the right thing? I just have to keep telling myself that there's a reason why we haven't sold the house, I just wish I knew what that reason is. Will we sell our house? I have no idea and I know I've said this before but at least we have the option to rent it out. I'm not going to stop praying that we sell the house, if anything I'm going to pray more. I know God has His hand all over this situation and I just need to remember that. Well today is the day before we move, yes I'm a bit stressed but I'm feeling a bit better. I was finishing up some of the packing this morning and I was just feeling sad and just wanting to go back to bed. Anyway, so all of the sudden my mood just changed and I felt so so much better. I totally believe at that moment someone was lifting me up in prayer and that is such an amazing feeling. Yeah I'm still feeling a bit overwhelmed and stressed but I feel like I can do this now and it's all going to be ok. I'm starting to get really excited about this move, this is a big adventure for us and I'm excited to see what's out there. Arthur will always be my home but right now, I will not miss it at all, I'll just miss all the wonderful friends that live here.

   Today was pretty uneventful, which I'm thankful for since the next few days are super crazy. I was actually going to pack our bedroom up today but I decided to wait until tomorrow. Anyway, here's to a more exciting post tomorrow :)

Packing, packing, and more packing.

  Today we packed up most of the house, there was about 8-10 ladies that came over and helped me and I was so glad that I had some help. I'm not going to lie it was a bit overwhelming, I had a few moments when I just had to take a deep breath because if I wouldn't have done that I would have lost it. I can't believe that in 3 days we'll be moving, it's crazy. I can't believe that it's actually 3 days away, I'm ready for it to be here because I feel like we've been waiting so long to do this but I also know that it's going to be incredibly emotional too. I'm really sad to leave the security of my home and my friends but I know this is what we have to do and it'll be ok. I hope the kids adjust pretty quick because right now I think it's a little overwhelming for them and I hate that because they can't really express how they feel. We just kind of guess how their feeling, but they're resiliant so it'll be good :)

My little hoarder

  Today I tackled the kids' rooms, I was putting it off and I decided that it was time I get to it. Serioulsy I had no idea how much stuff they had, Lauren's room wasn't too bad but I think Peyton has kept everything he's ever gotten, hopefully he's not turning into a hoarde. I guess it's a good thing he was at school because a lot of that stuff got thrown away, I'm hoping he won't notice. I was going to do a little bit more with the house but it's so overwhelming, I just don't know where to start. I was just standing in the kitchen thinking about what I should start on next. I know I should have had this done a few weeks ago but to anyone who's ever moved, I think you'll understand what I'm saying that it's so overwhelming. Oh well, I'm just glad that I have some ladies coming over to help me tomorrow because who knows if it would get done ;)
   Lamar and I actually get to have a little date tonight, which I'm pretty excited about because the last few weeks have been crazy and we haven't really seen each other that much. Now we're not doing anything that exciting, we're just going to look at a futon(for Angie's room ;) ) and a sectional, see I told you it wasn't very exciting. That's ok though at least we get to hang out together.

  I don't have a whole lot to post tonight except for this..........I LOVE THIS WEATHER!!!!!! I'm going to be really sad if it gets cold again but right now, I'm going to enjoy it while we have it :)

An Emotional Sunday.

  Today has been a super emotional day for Lamar and I. We had our last Sunday at the Sullivan Vineyard, not that we won't be back to visit because we will but it won't be the same. Jim asked Lamar and I to share a few things about how we came to this decision to move, I called "not it" so Lamar had to do the speaking, which he did such a good job and he got so many compliments on how good he did too :) Anyway, so of course we had to be there all 3 services and 1st and 2nd service wasn't to bad but then came 3rd. service, I could barely get through worship, it was just so emotional all around. After each service people came up to us and gave us words of encouragement, prayed with us, and just loved on us and that's the best feeling in the world knowing that you have so many people standing behind you and willing to step up to the plate to pray for us and encourage us through this journey that we're on. Carolyn shared a word with us this morning and it really hit home for us. She said that this move is even more about the kids then what it is about us, as much as an impact it will have on our lives it will have a much bigger impact on their lives. That this is a step for what God has planned for their lives. How awesome is that???? It might not make any sense to you guys but it makes sense to us. Hopefully in a few years we'll get to see what God's plan is for Peyton and Lauren.
  Tonight our friends had a going away party for us and yet again, it was pretty emotional. I'm not exactly sure who planned it and got it all together but I want to say Mandie, Angie, and Carolyn, sorry if I missed someone. Anyway, they made a scrapbook for us, they had a picture of everyone that was there and then they all wrote a little note for us and I thought that was such a great idea and I will definitely cherish that scrapbook. After they gave us the book Chad and Carolyn said that they just wanted a few people to share some memories that they have of us, I told myself that I wasn't going to cry when people were sharing but of course, I did. I have to say the despite it being such an emotional day my heart is completely full right now and I'm feeling so blessed to have such a great group of friends. I could never ask for a better group of friends, I know these people will continue to pray for us and keep in touch with us and I just love them all so much. So thanks to Nic & Mandie, Chad & Carolyn, Eric & Amy, Duane & Sheryl, Greg & Hannah, Troy, Angie, Todd & Shelby, BJ & Christy, Nick & Heidi, Dave & Barb and Brian & Julie for being there tonight. You guys all mean so much to us and we love you.

Reflection

  So today was a day of reflecting for me. Last night we went to Troy's and grilled out and had our last GP with us living in Arthur :( We all had a great time but yet it was incredibly sad. I know I sound like we're dying instead of just moving 2 hrs. away. It's just a really exciting time for Lamar and I yet it's really sad too, we've never lived anywhere but Arthur and now we're taking this huge step and moving away. I know we'll adjust to the move pretty quick and we'll make new friends but I know that we will not find another Troy, Eric, Amy, & Angie(my GP peeps) and I don't want to find other friends to take their place because no one could ever replace them. We have so many more friends here that we are going to miss like crazy but yes we will be back and they better come and visit us :) Lamar is cleaning and packing up the garage right now and I'm so glad that Lauren needed a shower because I had to come inside and have a mini meltdown, I told you I was going to try and quit crying so much but it didn't happen. I never thought that we would actually be doing this and a week from now we'll be mostly unpacked and trying to settle into our new house. It's crazy, I remember when Lamar told me that he feels called to go to Peoria, I honestly kind of laughed to myself because I was thinking that God would never call me to help start a new church, well clearly God had other ideas and I'm ok with it. I'm excited to see what's waiting for us in Morton/Peoria because I know it's going to be something good.

  So I have a love-hate realtionship with the month of March. Now I love that it's finally here because that means spring is right around the corner.....woohoo!!!! But along with March also comes dark, dreary, and windy weather, I just have to remeber to hold on to the fact that spring is only a few weeks away. It's raining this afternoon, which I'm not complaining about because the rain makes for perfect napping weather so I will definitely be napping this afternoon :) Well aside from my exciting post about March(ok it really wasn't that exciting) I've got nothing. Please keep reading my blog because I promise it will get more exciting soon :)

  We have had absolutely beautiful weather today, it makes me so excited for spring, well except for it being so windy but I would much rather have it be warm and windy then cold and windy so I will take this weather, it's awesome. A bunch of us ladies met at the park with the kids so they can play and it was so nice that Lauren could run off some energy, hopefully she's nice and worn out now.

  I made another obversation today, I let me emotions control me way to much. I hate that, I'm usually not so emotional but yeah, lots of things are changing and it's hard to deal with the change. So I've decided that I need to put my big girl pants on and suck it up, I'm an adult and I need to stop crying about everything, seriously get over it. Ok, that's my pep talk to myself. Yeah I'm a weirdo I know. So no more crying.........well I'm going to try really hard to not cry so much anymore ;)

  Today my mom, and mother-in-law and myself went over to Morton to clean the new house, I know it was so much fun........ok maybe not. It was disgusting, I spent the entire time cleaning the kitchen and the other 2 did the rest, and I didn't even get the oven cleaned because it was just that gross. I'm pretty sure they hadn't cleaned in weeks and they had a dog that shed like crazy. Anyway, I'm just glad that it's all over and done with, now we can offcially move in next weekend..........10 days, holy crap I only have 10 days left her in Arthur. It's going to be a sad, sad weekend :(
  After I got home today Lamar stopped in for just a bit before he left for Champaign and I had a breakdown. I'm so ready to get these emotions under control. He's going to be gone until Friday afternoon and I told him that I feel like I'm doing this all by myself, even though I'm really not. I'm just so emotionally drained and overwhelmed with everything but I'll get through it and when I do I'll be much more relaxed, at least I hope so anyway. I'm just thankful for a wonderful hubby who is there for me, prays with me, and just understands all my crazy emotions. So thank you God for blessing me with such an amazing man. :)

Blah

 So I don't really have that much to say right now, shocking I know. Other then that I'm completely stressed out but it's all good because I know that it's all going to come together. I'm just ready to be moved and settled in over there, so I guess that's all for tonight.

True friends, you know who you are ;)

    So I've realized a few things this weekend and some of them I wish I wouldn't have figured it out, but I guess I'm just to smart ;) hahaha ok maybe not. This last weekend was a really good weekend, it was spent with some pretty great friends and some friends that we hadn't seen in a long time. But I realized that with us moving, I'm really finding out who my true friends are. For some reason when you make a decision to move, or this is just how I feel about it, that some people slowly step out of you life and I hate that. I don't want anyone to step back just because we're moving but I also understand that that's just how it works sometimes. I know that certain people that we hung out with this weekend will truly miss us and make the effort to stay in touch and actually take time out of their busy lives to come and see us, and well the other, not so much. And yes, it kills me knowing that once we move we really won't see some of our friends like we used to but I also understand that that's life, people move and you grow apart. I know that you have to make more of an effort to stay in contact with those friends and I will do everything I can to keep them in my life. Those people have been there for me through so much, they've been there for the most difficult time in my life to the happiest time in my life. We've laughed and cried together and there was never any judgement for anything and for that I say "Thanks, you guys are awesome and I couldn't ask for better friends." And to those that I know we're just going to grow apart, I have say "Thanks for the good times we had. I wish we could continue this journey together but unfortuantely we're going to grow apart and that's just how life is. I have to accept it and move on."  Sorry if this post is all over the place and doesn't really make any sense, but it's how I'm feeling today and it makes sense to me :)

Last Panic Group :(

  Tonight was the last Sunday night with our panic group and it pretty much sucks. I was talking to Amy today and I told her that I hate thinking that everything is my "last" of doing this or that, I know I sound like I'm dying instead of just moving but that's just how it is. We also figured out that Peyton is pretty nervous about the move, he just hasn't been himself lately and I finally sat down and talk to him tonight and he did say that he's nervous about moving. I'm glad that we've figured it out because now we know how to deal with it, well maybe anyway ;) I'm just so ready for this move to be over, I feel like I'm a nervous wreck all the time, I'm incredibly anxious and my stomach is in knots constantaly. I hate this feeling, I just want to be able to relax and enjoy these "last" moments that we have her in Arthur. I know that these feelings probably won't go away the minute we're moved over there but hopefully they'll subside just a bit.

Relaxing Saturday

  Today was the first Saturday that I've had nothing to do all day and I LOVE it. I did a little shopping in Tuscola this morning, came home and fed the kids some lunch, took the kids to the park, and came home and took a little nap. And now tonight we're going to hang out with some friends that we haven't seen in awhile so all in all I think today has/will be a great day. I really don't miss working Saturdays at all :)

Homeowners.....again

  Today was a big day for us, we went to Morton for the closing on our house there. YAY!!!!!! So I guess we're really moving, it's hard to believe that we'll be moving out of good ol' Arthur and moving to Morton, a town where we know absolutely no one, well except for one family and I have yet to meet his wife. I know we'll be fine and we'll meet new people but it's so hard to leave the safety of this home and town where we grew up.
  I've come to accept the fact that we will have to rent out our house, even though Lamar and I really don't want to do that, and I know that you've heard that from me before. But I'm just incredibly thankful that we have that option to rent out and we can still have some "income" coming in to help with the payments. I did realize last night that I feel like God "owes" me something, as in selling our house, because since He asked us to move He should allow our house to sell right???? Well not necessarily, if it's not His will to sell the house then we just have to accept it and make the best it, so that's what I plan on doing. If the house doesn't sell then we'll just make the best of it because we'll make it somehow :)

Fasting & Faith

  Well the last 2 days have been super emotional for me, there's just so much going on right now and with us that we haven't been able to sell the house yet, well it's been a bit stressful. We also got an email from Ben H. about doing a 40 day fast, needless to say I was so not happy about getting this email. I told Lamar that I've been fasting something since January do I really need to fast more stuff. But then I was thinking, I've been fasting so far for 2 1/2 months and if you add on the 40 days it would be right about 4 months of me fasting something and I'm complaining about giving something up for 4 months and look at everything that God has given up for us and everything He's done for us. I feel like a total brat saying that I'm not fasting anything else, I've been doing it long enough. Well God definitely opened up my eyes on that one and He showed me how selfish I was being. Now I still am not exactly sure what I'll be fasting but I know that God will show me. I also went back and read my post from 2 days ago, the one about being disappointed, and of course God opened my eyes on that one too. Today has just been an eye opening day ;) Anyway, He basically asked me how often we have disappointed God, we disappoint Him every day and yet when one thing doesn't go our/my way then we cry, throw a fit and act like our whole is crashing down. Now granted, I was pretty sure that those people were going to buy our house and when they didn't it was very upsetting, but that also did not give me the right to act like I did. I told someone the other day that if God has asked us to pack up and move then why would He not allow our house to sell, I sounded like it's my right to have the house sell because God has asked us to do this, I have no right to say what God needs to do. If we don't sell our house at least we have the option to have renters and the house won't be completely empty and we can still be able to make 2 house payments. I know that there's a reason why our house hasn't sold, unfortunately I don't know that exact reason. Maybe it's so our faith in God will get stronger, or that we'll learn to rely on Him just a bit more then what we already do, I have no idea but I hope I can get an answer soon ;) I do have to say that I love the faith that Lamar has and it's so encouraging to see that too. We were talking last night and he was telling me that he has some stuff written down for his "speech" when they do the send off weekend for us. I asked him if he has anything in there about our house being sold and he said, "nope, but there's a place in there for that because I know our house will sell by then." That right there is a lot of faith and I wish I had just a bit more then what I do but Lamar is always there to encourage me right when I need it the most and that helps so much. Thanks for being such a great encouragement to your crazy wife, I love you Lamar :)

Emotional Roller Coaster.

  We just got a call from the family that looked at the house last night and they told us that they found another house, needless to say I'm a little upset. I really thought we were going to get this house sold and now it doesn't seem like it's going to happen. I hate getting my hopes up and then I get let down every time, it's so up and down and I don't know how much more I can take. We've prayed and prayed that our house would sell and both Lamar and I feel like if God has asked us to pick up and move for Him then He would allow the house to sell, so I'm just curious why hasn't it sold? I know it's all in His timing but I'm about to go crazy. I'm an emotional basket case and I hate that about myself, any little thing can happen and the tears start flowing I never used to be like this at all. These last 3 months have been such an emotional roller coaster and I want off this ride. I don't feel like myself at all, I'm stressed all the time, I don't sleep, and yes, I cry all the time. Yes I know I sound like a crazy woman but unfortuantely it's just how I'm feeling today. I know this is all in God's hands and all we can do is continue to pray, it's just hard to remember that sometimes. So I guess if you guys think about it I could definitely use some extra prayers right now, I just want to be back to my normal self, well as normal as I can be;)

Disappointment :(

  Oh how I hate being disappointed, and yes right now that's exactly what I am. We had someone come look at the house tonight, they've already been here one other time and actually put an offer on the house(unfortunately it's not what we need) Anyway, they said that they want to look at some other houses and see what it would cost to remodel/add on to this house. I was really hoping for some good news tonight and this is so not what I wanted to hear. I know that God will come through but I have to ask, When? Why not now? How much longer do we have to wait? It's so hard to spend hours and hours getting the house ready and then having to leave the house while people come to see it and then nothing ever comes out of it. I know it's all in God's timing and obviously there's a reason why it hasn't sold yet and I just need to remember that but right now I'm just sadly disappointed.

My boring blog.

 So I realized today that my blog is getting quite boring, don't get me wrong I'm pretty happy that there's nothing major or earth shattering to blog about but I feel bad for everyone who's reading it, that well it's just quite boring. I know in a few weeks they'll be lots to blog about with the move and everything that goes along with that and I'm sure they'll be some interesting stories of trying to find the post office, the DMV, etc.....Let's just say I don't read directions very well at all and I get lost pretty easily so I'm sure I'll have some great stories.

  I guess I do have something kind of exciting to share, the people that made an offer on the house Saturday morning they are coming to look at the house again tomorrow afternoon. I know that we've counter-offered so hopefully they'll come back with a more acceptable offer. Just say a quick prayer if you think about it, thanks. Hopefully I'll have some good news to share with you all in a couple of days :)

Winery With Friends

  We went to the winery this afternoon with some good friends and we had such a good time. It was good to hang out with them again, we don't really see them that often but it was nice to catch up it's just been to long since we've seen them. They were even nice enough to make dinner for us and let me tell you, it was delicious. I know that Lamar and I are trying to spend time with as many peeps as we can before we leave and hopefully we can squeeze everyone in, gosh I sound like we're so popular ;) Anyway, Lamar and I had a great day today and I'm pretty sure that we'll be finding a winery as soon as we move to Peoria, they're just so much fun :)

  Today was my last day working at Yoder's and let me tell you that I'm pretty excited about it. I've been working there off and on for about 15 years, but I've just been waitressing for the last 8 years, yes 8 years. It's crazy to think that I've been there that long.......wow, I'm just glad to be done there :)

   So we had our open house this morning and the realtor said that it was a pretty good turn-out and there were a few people that seemed pretty interested so YAY. We did actually get a verbal offer but it's too low so now we get to counter offer and do all that fun stuff, but hey at least we got an offer. And honestly it's not to far off from what we need so hopefully we can agree on the perfect price. I'm hoping by the end of next week we'll know a little more of what's going on. I always try to not get my hopes up with something like this but it's so hard not too. I know it'll happen, I just have to be a bit more patient.

Being Thankful.

  This week has been kind of a blah week, the weather has been dreary, I feel like I haven't seen Lamar at all this week, and I've just felt blah so I've decided that I'm going to list some of the things that I'm most thankful for. Maybe that will brighten my week ;)
1. My husband and kids, even though they drive me crazy sometimes I don't know what I'd do without them.
2. My family, I have a crazy family but I still love them to pieces.
3. I have a wonderful group of friends, sometimes I feel like I don't get to see them enough but I know that they'll always be there for me.
4. I'm incredibly thankful for Lamar's job and that he was able to transfer with the move, God definitely blessed us with Lamar being able to do that.
5. I LOVE my new house and I can't wait to get in and start decorating.
6. I'm thankful for my wonderful church, I don't know where I would be without it.
7. I'm thankful that I have a forgiving God and that He loves me no matter what.
8.I love, love, love my panic group and I will miss them so much. I'm not sure if I can stand to teach another couple the game of panic.
9. I love all the blessings God has given to us, even though none of us deserve it but yet, He continues to bless us everyday :)
10. DIET COKE, enough said :) :) :)
11. The Real Housewives of Arthur, I'll miss you ladies when we move.
  I know I have so many more things that I'm thankful for that I didn't list but honestly, this did make me feel much better.

Desparate for warm weather

  Ok I am so ready for spring/summer that I'm about to go crazy and I know that my kids are about to go crazy too, along with DRIVING me crazy. There's just a whole lot of crazy right now. They have so much pent up energy it's crazy, Peyton has actually been going outside a lot more at school so that's helped a little bit but Lauren, wow, I don't know what to say she's just a huge ball of energy. She makes me tired just watching her. They're either playing really good together or they're just fighting non-stop. Warm weather please get here quickly, plus when it's warmer I can run outside instead of on the treadmill.....woohoo!

  So do you ever have those feelings that you just feel like your getting left out of something? For some reason I've been feeling like that a lot lately and I don't like it and I know it sounds childish too. I kind of feel like I'm not as close with some of my friends that I used to be and that makes me really sad. Maybe it's just God's way of preparing me to move because I won't be able to just call up someone and say hey do you want to meet for lunch in an hour, I'm not going to have these people "at my fingertips" I know I'll make new friends but it's hard to leave these friends behind, I just hope they all know how much I'll miss them.

 Today I did some more packing and I kind of feel like I'm getting somewhere, although I would have liked to be way further ahead with the packing then what I am, but it's all good I know I'll get it all done. Plus if I don't I'm calling in some recruits ;) We also have the open house this weekend so I didn't want to pack to much stuff up because I don't want all the boxes laying around. I'm praying that something good will come out of this open house, I know it's all in God's hands and I can't worry about it all I can do is just continue to pray about it.

Today I had bible study and it was so good, it was exactly what I needed to hear. I love how God works that way, when it comes to bible study, church, or whatever It's usually something that you need to hear. I'm really struggling with the fact that we haven't sold our house yet but I was reminded this morning that God does hear all of our prayers but It's always on His time. I've always known that but sometimes it's just a great reminder. So thanks Beth Moore for the great reminder, I needed that today :)

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