Last Post of 2012

 Well, this is my last post of 2012. I can't believe that this year is already over, it seems like we were just saying goodbye to 2011. This past year has definitely had it's ups and downs and I do have to say that I'm ready for 2013. So everyone usually has a word that they want to apply to their life for that whole year, mine was Joy. And yeah, it didn't go exactly like I wanted it too. It was just an emotional year for me and I feel like I didn't apply it like I wanted too. So this year I have decided to do something a little different, I'm going to take a picture of something everyday that makes me happy or thankful. I'm going to shoot for 60 days so  we'll see how that goes ;) Who knows, maybe I'll end up doing it everyday for an entire year. I do have some goals for this year too, I want to grow in my relationship with God, I want to be a better wife/mother, I want mine and Lamar's relationship to grow stronger, I definitely want to blog more too, and I'm sure that I'll add a few more goals here and there. I'm just excited to see what God has in store for me this year, I know there will be lots of changes, especially with a baby coming in March. I'm just excited for the new year and what it's going to bring.

Emotions Are Running High

  First off I want to say that I'm so excited that I'm pregnant so please don't hear me say that I'm not because I'm about to vent for a bit. Second, I do not like all of these emotions. I feel like I've been way more emotional this time around then I was with the other 2. It's just frustrating because I can cry at the drop of a hat for no reason at all, ugh sometimes being a girl sucks. I just want to feel normal again, I want to be skinny and be able to bend over and tie my shoes, I want to be able to walk up the stairs without feeling like I'm going to have an asthma attack, I want to be able to run again(I miss running so, so much) I want to be able to sleep on my stomach again, and I'm sure there's so much more. But like I said I am excited that I'm pregnant it's just that I've hit my irritable point in my pregnancy and I'm tired of all the emotions. I know when "Max" gets here it will be all worth it, I just wish I would be due in 1 month instead of 3. Oh well, I know he'll be worth the wait.
  On an unrelated pregnancy issue, I'm so not looking forward to Lamar being gone in 2 weeks. Maybe that's part of the "emotional issue" It's just that he's been home pretty much the whole month of December and it's been great and I just got used to him being around all the time. I know he's going to be gone a lot in January and I just hate it. It just makes the days and nights so long but I know we'll get back into a routine and it'll be fine, it always is. I guess I need to stop thinking about it so much because he is home now and I need to enjoy it. Anyway, that's enough venting and complaining :/

Post Birthday Blues

 So it's the day after my birthday and I realized last night that I really don't like this day. You wait 365 days to celebrate a day that's all about you, and you can do whatever you want(well most of the time) get lots of birthday wishes, gifts, and of course cake. But the day after...it just goes back to normal and then you start the countdown to your next birthday and hope that it's better then the one you had before. Now don't get me wrong, I had a good day yesterday. Lamar made sure that it was extra special for me and I love that he did that, he's a pretty amazing husband. I guess it makes it worth waiting for the next birthday :)
  When I went to bed last night I was reflecting over the last year or few years and I realized that I'm now 33 years old and I have accomplished nothing. How sad is that???? I feel like I've just let my life pass me by and I've really done nothing with it. I mean is this really what the rest of my life is going to be like, just being a stay at home mom, making sure the laundry is done, kids are fed, house is clean, etc. I guess if that's all I'm called to do then I need to embrace it and do it the best way that I know how. It's just I never thought that this is ALL I would be doing. I always thought that God had bigger plans for me and maybe He does and He just hasn't revealed them to me yet. So I will continue to be the best mom/wife/friend that I know how to be and if God has something more for me then I know God will reveal that to me when the time is right.

Hello Again

 So I have been thinking about getting back to blogging again and I realized that I haven't blogged since April. Wow, that's a long time. Clearly I didn't do a very good job of blogging this year but I'm going to try to get back into it. So much has happened since April I really don't know where to begin. I guess I can start with the most exciting thing that has happened this year, of course if anyone out there still reads this then you already know but we are having our 3rd baby in March. I'm so excited to be doing the whole baby thing again, yes it's going to be hard but I know that I'll have 3 wonderful helpers and I'm very excited about it. I have to say that this has definitely not been an easy pregnancy but so far I've made it, only 15 weeks to go :) I just get so tired so easily and I can't do everything that I used to do but I can make the sacrifice to keep this little guy healthy. The kids are so excited about their baby brother too, they've actually nicknamed him "Max." Hmm what else is going on???? Well we're in the middle of the holiday season and it's just a crazy time of year, I love Christmas time but sometimes I wish things would just slow down a bit so we can enjoy it a little more and not have so many things going on all at one time. I guess the older we get the busier it gets and the quicker the holiday season goes by. Gosh, that's something my mom would say ;) man I am getting old :)