Today was a bit emotional for me, I'm so not used to all these hormones and they are driving me crazy. But luckily, I have an amazing husband who is ok with these emotions(well I'm assuming he's ok with them ;) ) I had a major moment this morning when I got out of the shower and realized that I have these disgusting veins on my large, tree trunk leg. Thank goodness it's not summer and I don't have to wear shorts but still, they're so disgusting. When I seen them I just burst into tears, I'm just at that point where I feel so disgusting and I'm totally uncomfortable and nothing fits anymore. I just forgot what your body goes through during pregnancy. So once again, I'm so incredibly thankful for an understanding husband who just hugs me and loves me through all these emotions. And he doesn't care that I have to steal his t-shirts because mine don't fit anymore, as long as I give them back. Again, so thankful for an amazing husband who might not have a clue what I'm going through or how I'm feeling but he's just there for me and sometimes that's all I need.

Church Family

  Today I was reminded how grateful I am for my church family. I never thought in a million years that Lamar and I would be helping with a church plant, much less move 2hrs away from the town where we both grew up and leave all our friends and family. God called us to help with this church plant and yes, I was a bit freaked out by it but having the church plant team along side us made the transition so much easier. Today I was just reminded how much I appreciate each and every one of them. They're all very genuine people and we all seem to get along, well for the most part ;) I think the thing that I love the most is that everyone seems so excited for Lamar and I that we're having another baby, they always ask how I'm feeling, how much longer I have, always complementing me telling me that I look great(not like my Dr. who told me I gained to much weight) and they're always there just to encourage me when I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed. And today, I had one of the guys from church ask how our remodel in the basement has been going and as I was telling him he told me that we need to have a work day at our house because him and his wife would really like to come over and help wherever they can. It's just that everyone seems so willing to jump in and help wherever they're needed and I love that. I feel so blessed to have a church family that WANTS to help out and just be there to support us. I've said this so many times and I'm sure I'll say it many more times but Lamar and I couldn't have asked for a better group of people to go on this church plant with, God once again blessed us beyond anything we could ever imagine.

  So I'm pretty sure when I started this years resolution that I said I would take pictures of things that I'm thankful for or things that make me happy. Yeah, I kind of forgot to do that yesterday but I figure that at least I'm blogging about it and I'll take pics when I can ;)
  Moving on, so today I am thankful to serve such a loving and forgiving God. No matter what mistakes I've made or how far I've walked away from Him, He still loves me and accepts me when I come crawling back. I've done so many stupid things in my life and some days I'm still amazed that God hasn't just written me off, thank goodness He hasn't. I know that everyone says that but I don't know where I would be if He actually had given up on me, it scares me to even think about it. I know that I am not exactly where I would like to be in my walk with Him but I'm working on it and I'm getting there. I get closer to Him everyday and He continues to show me new things everyday. I'm slowly learning that He loves me for just being me, I don't have to prove anything to Him or I don't have to look a certain way He just loves me for being me. I continue to strive to be a better christian and be who He wants and made me to be. I'm just so thankful for Him continuing to love me and forgive me for all my silly mistakes. I so glad to serve such an awesome God.

Today I'm super thankful for Lamar's job. I know there are so many people out there that don't have jobs and are struggling. Luckily, we've been fortunate enough that Lamar has steady work and we have a steady income. I don't like that fact that he does have to travel with his job but it's only a few times a month and I can handle that, at least for right now. We'll see what happens after the baby gets here ;) And when Lamar isn't traveling, he works at home which is great. He has an office in the basement and at first I wasn't sure how I was going to handle having him around all the time but I've gotten used to it and there are some days when I only see him when he comes up to grab some lunch and when he's done working at night. I think we've adjusted to him working from home pretty well. He's fortunate enough to work for a company that was willing to let him switch positions when we moved so he didn't have to look for another job. It took a little less stress off of the move ;) It's also allowed me to be a stay at home mom too and most people can't say that. There are some days when it would be nice to be able to get out of the house and go to work but then again, there's not very many jobs that let you wear sweats and t-shirts to work ;)

Diet Coke-Quiet Time

This is one of the many things that make me happy, my afternoon quiet-diet coke time. Usually the kids have room time every day and I take advantage of the quiet to have a diet coke and just relax. I catch up on my dvr stuff, read, browse online, etc. I know that I probably shouldn't drink diet coke, at least not every day, but it hasn't killed me yet and it's just one of those things that makes me happy. I know this is a really short post but really, how much can you say about diet coke ;)

Days like today didn't make it hard for me to know what I'm thankful for. This morning when I woke up it was only 6 degrees out, it makes me chilly just thinking about it, and I knew immediately that I am so thankful for my nice, warm house. I know there's so many people out there that are homeless and don't have any warm place to go and I always wonder how they survive in weather like this. Anyway, I know that our house isn't big, it's not a brand new house, and yes we've had some issues with it but it's OUR house and I love it. I love that before we moved and we were in the area just looking for houses that we found this one by accident. I knew the minute I saw that for sale sign that this would be our house. I truly believe that God had our GPS take a wrong turn so we could find this house. We've made so many memories here already and not with just our family but also with our friends. I love that we have a fenced in backyard and a full, finished out basement. The only thing I don't like is that it's bigger then our last house and it takes a lot longer to clean ;) I know that I am blessed more then I could have ever imagined.

Hello 2013

 Well this is my first post of 2013, it's crazy to think how fast 2012 went by but like I said in my last post I'm so excited to see what 2013 is going to bring. I think I also mentioned in my last post what my New Year's Resolutions/Goals are but I'll say it again. One of them is to be more conscious of things that I'm thankful for or things that make me happy. So I'm shooting for the first 60 days to do this, I know it's not for the entire year but that's ok. If I do more then 60 days great, and if not, well that's ok too ;) Anyway, so here's the first thing I'm thankful for, my little family. First, I am so amazed at the wonderful husband that God has blessed me with. Lamar is so much more then I ever thought I deserved. He's such a great husband and dad and he's stepped up so much to help me out since I've been pregnant. This pregnancy hasn't been as easy as it was with Peyton and Lauren but Lamar has stepped up and made it a bit easier for me.I couldn't ask for a better man to stand by me and I'm so incredibly thankful that God brought us together. Second, I'm so thankful for my 2 beautiful kids and the one on the way. Yes they can drive me crazy but they both have the most tender hearts and spirits and whenever I'm not feeling well or I'm just super tired, they're always asking if there's anything they can do or anything they can get for me. I love how Peyton is just like Lamar, he always has to be doing something and he's always willing to help out whenever we ask him. And Lauren, well she is such a free-spirit and I just love that about her. I always tell people that if she's around 2 or more people then it's a party and you know she's going to have a good time whatever she's doing. I just pray that she stays that way when she grows up. I love the little lady that she's becoming, it does make me a bit sad that I don't have my little girl anymore but at least now I have a great shopping buddy ;) Third, I'm so thankful for "Max" I can't believe we're actually doing this again. Sometimes I think we're a bit crazy for having another baby but I know it will all be ok. I feel like this pregnancy has gone by so fast and I only have 11 weeks left(I'm hoping it'll be more like 9 weeks) I'm just so excited to see who he's going to look like and what his personality is going to be like, I just can't wait to meet the little guy. God has blessed me with my amazing little family and I think Him for them every day.