Admitting it is always the first step.....

  Why is it always so hard to admit when there's a problem? Maybe it's because we don't want people to think that we're going crazy or insane so we keep it bottled up until we feel like we're going to explode. And then when we actually do talk about it and let it out, it's a huge relief, it's weird how I always forget that. This season of life has turned out to be more difficult then I thought it would be, I wanted to appear strong and make people believe that I can actually do this, which I can do this but I just need a little help to balance things out and I just want to feel normal again.  There were days when the anxiety, fear, and worry just got to be to much for me and I just couldn't handle it anymore so that's why I'm going back on meds. until I can get this whole thing figured out. I know you all are probably thinking why in the world is she putting this in her blog, but I process things better this way and well it's my blog and I pretty much put everything out there. Like I said before I just want to feel normal again and I want to be happy again, I really didn't think it would be this hard but apparently it is. I'm just glad that I'm open about it now and it's out there and hopefully, I can get this thing figured out so if you can keep me in your prayers I would really appreciate. Thanks guys :)