So I'm trying to process through some things right now so this won't be much of a post. Don't worry it's nothing bad that I'm processing, I've mentioned that I'm reading Battlefield of the Mind and right now there are so many things going on in my mind right now that I can't put it in writing just yet. I hope that makes sense. Anyway, I highly recommend that everyone read this book. I'm only about a quarter of the way through and it's already taught me so much, this will definitely be getting read again :)

It's summer time :)

    Well today was one of those days that you either had to be at the pool or playing in the sprinkler, it was around 90 today so yeah, it was hot. I'm definitely not complaining though because I will take this weather over cold weather any day. We did break out a small inflatable pool for the kids and they had so much fun. I honestly didn't think that they would play in it that much but they played in it for about 3 hours, and poor Peyton got a bit of a sunburn, at least they had a good time and they were nice and worn out too :) I was going to take them to the pool here in Morton but I found out that the kids are not allowed to use floaties, they have to use coast guard approved life jackets, yes I'm serious. I don't even know where to buy the coast guard approved life jackets, I know that you can buy life jackets at Wal-Mart but are they the right ones? Plus, we don't have a ton of extra money to spend on life jackets right now, so the inflatable pool in the backyard it is. I'm just glad that the kids had fun, I'm thinking that this pool will get a lot of use this summer.

To get a job, to not get a job.

   Well I've been going back and forth about getting a job or not. I feel bad because right now I'm really not contributing to anything, bills, food, clothes, etc. so I'm trying to decide what I should do. I've noticed that there are a few places that are hiring right now but is it worth it for me to get a job. I couldn't work during the day because it definitely wouldn't be worth it for me to pay for a sitter because I would most likely just be making minimum wage, and well daycare/babysitting is expensive. So I would have to work at night and do I really want to work at night? No I don't, I wouldn't really see Lamar that much and I know that I would be missing out on cookouts, small group, and whatever else we might do. I really wish that I could get Stella & Dot going here because that would help so much but it's so hard to get a business like S & D going when you move to a new town and you don't know anyone, it would just be really awkward to ask strangers to have a S & D party for you, so once I get that going I really feel like I should be doing something else. I guess I could always fill out some applications and see what happens, I mean I can always turn a job offer down. Although if I would get offered a job, at this point it would be pretty difficult to turn it down.

   I don't really have much to say today, my day was pretty relaxing. Angie and I slept in and went on a walk later, relaxed in the afternoon and then did some shopping. So it was a pretty good day, I definitely needed a day like today, you know because I don't have enough of those days where I do absolutely nothing ;) I guess that's all I have for now.

   Last night I went to Champaign to stay with Angie because Lamar is gone and I didn't want to stay by myself. Well after I put the kids to bed we were watching TV and just hanging out, well we started talking about things going on in our life and all that good stuff. Now Angie is much, much older then me(sorry I had to get that in there Angie) so all my life I've kind of felt like I'm the younger, annoying sister but last night it didn't feel like that. I truly feel like even though Angie is my older sister that she now sees me on the same level as her, well somewhat anyway. I don't know, it just felt nice to sit there and basically pour our hearts out, I love having sister moments like that. And yes, I'm sure she probably thinks that I can still be the annoying, younger sister but it was nice to not feel like that last night. So thanks Angie, you're the best :)

   Today I was going to take the kids to the zoo with Tina and Shalome, unfortunately it's been raining most of the day so we didn't go. We did go over to Shalome's for lunch instead and we had a good time, the kids played so well together so it gave Tina, Shalome and I just a chance to relax and have a good chat. It's just nice to get to know everyone a little better and the more I get to know the team the more I feel like this is where I'm supposed to be. Of course, that feeling could change tomorrow......although I really hope it doesn't. But it does feel good to feel more comfortable around these people that I'm going to be doing life with and just feeling more comfortable in general. I'm slowly, slowly starting to feel like this is home. It feels so weird saying that Morton is feeling like home, it's a good feeling but still a little weird. I know the more we're here obviously the more comfortable I'll be with living here. I really can't wait until Morton really feels like home.

  Well I don't have much to say, I didn't to much today but clean the house and just relax a little, exciting I know. So I guess this is all you're going to get today.