So this blog hasn't gone the way I was hoping for it to go but hey, it's my blog and I can do what I want with it right??? ;) These past few weeks I've come to realize a few things about myself and really it's not things that I like, so yay, more stuff to work on to better myself. It seems like when you want to better yourself it's just a never ending process. Moving on, I've discovered that I really hate being by myself. I know it doesn't seem like it's anything major but really, I just hate it. I think it's just that I've gotten so used to Lamar being at home with me and when he's gone and the kids are at school I don't know what to do with myself. It's just very weird to me because I used to love when I was by myself, yeah not so much anymore. You would think that I would love this time that I have to myself, especially since we'll have a baby soon and then who knows when I'll get time to myself. I think it's just because it gives me to much to think about everything that's going on around me and in my life and honestly it just stresses me out. I just wish I could figure out why this has changed. It seems like my life got completely turned upside down when we moved and some of the things that never bothered me, bother me now and it didn't start until after we moved. Sometimes I just want to go back to the way things used to be, before we moved, then maybe I wouldn't have all these issues. Like I said, I know it doesn't seem like it's that big of a deal but to me it is and it's just another thing that I'll have to pray through and deal with. I feel like my list of  "issues" is getting bigger and bigger :/