VLT

  The first Monday of the month we always have VLT(vineyard leadership training) and basically all the small group leaders, ministry leaders, etc. just get together and talk about what's going on in their groups and get some much needed prayer. Well as we were in our group Lamar and I were looking over the agenda for the month of feb.and march and we realized that this is our last VLT that we'll be going to before we move. Of course, I'm trying to hold back the tears, today was pretty emotional so it didn't really do any good. It hit me that soon there's going to be so many "lasts" like this is our last night going to small group, our last church service, and so on. Honestly I don't want to sit here and think about all our "lasts", I want to enjoy those moments that we have with the ones we love but it's hard not to think about the fact that we're moving and we won't get to do this anymore. It's not like we won't ever come back but it won't be the same as what it is now, it's just such an emotional time right now. I'm definitely going to try to enjoy the time that I still have here in Arthur but I can't make any promises that I won't burst into tears at that time either.

  The last 2 days have been kind of rough for me so good thing we had church today so I could get some prayer ;) It always amazes me when you go up for prayer and what you want prayer for isn't actually what's going on or what you're struggling with, I hope that makes sense because it makes sense in my head....lol Anyway, so as these 2 ladies were praying for me the one asked me if I feel like I'm not good enough to go on this church plant, I burst into tears, she hit the nail on the head. I've struggled with being worthy enough or good enough my whole life and I've gotten prayer for it numerous times but just when I think that I'm over it it comes back and smacks me in the face. I hate that feeling of unworthiness, I mean God chose me for a reason but it's so hard to realize that He did choose me, obviously He sees something in me that I don't see. I would love to just have a glimpse of how God sees me, how awesome would that be. I wonder how different we would live our lives if we would see ourselves how God sees us? Please don't think that I'm feeling sorry for myself when I say this but I can't wait for the day when I actually feel worthy enough to do this, and believe me I hope it's some day soon.

  This week has been such a long week that I'm so ready for it to be over. Peyton had 3 snow days and I was stuck in the house the whole time. Now I don't mind staying home for 1 day or so but after that I need to get out, it was just crazy. I'm so ready for spring, it's time for cookouts, taking the kids to the pool or the park, going on walks at night...etc. Can you tell I have spring fever? Lamar was checking the weather tonight and he said that it could get up to the 50's in a couple of weeks, I didn't think I would ever be so excited for 50 degree weather. Well here's to hoping for warm weather very, very soon.

Coffee Time!

  This morning I had a few ladies and their kids over for coffee. I have to say that I love when we get together for coffee, it's nice to sit, relax, have some coffee and just chat away. I love when we have these mornings together because it just reminds me of what great friends I have, we can share what's going on in our lives and no one is going to judge, we can just be real with each other. I have to say friends like that are very hard to come by so I think I'll keep these friends around for awhile ;) I love these ladies and I look forward to many more coffee dates with them.

   This week has been such a boring week for me and I feel bad for the ones who read this blog because I have nothing exciting to post. I guess that can be a good thing that nothing to exciting is going on but man, I have to have something to blog about. We did finally get out of the house tonight, we went to Eric and Amy's small group and it went really well, it was nice to actually be going to small group again. I think last fall I only went 2 times because I had volleyball games and it just didn't work out so it was good to get back into a small group. I don't know if we'll make it every week but I'm sure that we'll go back when we can, so thanks Eric and Amy for having us :)

Cabin Fever

  So I've been stuck in this house for 2 days now and let's just say that "I HAVE CABIN FEVER!" Yes that was me yelling, I don't mind being at home for a day but it's been 2 days now and I'm about to go crazy. I know there's so much that I could be doing but this weather makes me feel incredibly lazy so I did nothing today. All I have to say is that I hope Peyton has school tomorrow and I'm hoping that I can get out of the house. Sorry for such a short post but that's all I got right now ;)

Winter Storm!

Well it's the first day of February and I have to say that I think it's going to be a memorable one. We've had a severe storm warning out since yesterday and it's supposed to go until tomorrow sometime. So far we have got a ton of ice and it really sucks, I have to say that it looks so pretty out but I know how much damage ice can cause. I've actually never seen a winter storm like this before, well not that I can remember. We haven't lost our electricity yet and I really hope we don't. I keep seeing people on fb saying that they've lost power and that makes me a little nervous. Lamar was actually supposed to leave today and not come back until tomorrow night but man, I'm so glad he stayed home. I would have been a nervous wreck if he would have left, plus I would have hated to stay at home by myself with a storm like this. I have to say that having a winter storm like this makes me a lot more greatful for my nice, warm house. I just hope everyone that's out there is able to find some kind of shelter from this storm.