The last 2 days have been kind of rough for me so good thing we had church today so I could get some prayer ;) It always amazes me when you go up for prayer and what you want prayer for isn't actually what's going on or what you're struggling with, I hope that makes sense because it makes sense in my head....lol Anyway, so as these 2 ladies were praying for me the one asked me if I feel like I'm not good enough to go on this church plant, I burst into tears, she hit the nail on the head. I've struggled with being worthy enough or good enough my whole life and I've gotten prayer for it numerous times but just when I think that I'm over it it comes back and smacks me in the face. I hate that feeling of unworthiness, I mean God chose me for a reason but it's so hard to realize that He did choose me, obviously He sees something in me that I don't see. I would love to just have a glimpse of how God sees me, how awesome would that be. I wonder how different we would live our lives if we would see ourselves how God sees us? Please don't think that I'm feeling sorry for myself when I say this but I can't wait for the day when I actually feel worthy enough to do this, and believe me I hope it's some day soon.