2 months down :)

  Well it's been 2 months since I started my quest to blog every day for a year and so far I've been able to do it. Some posts have been good and well, some have been really lame but hey I can't have something fabulous to post everyday although it would be pretty great if I did ;) So I guess that means I have 10 months left, wow I wonder what I'll be blogging about in 10 months. I don't think I can think that far ahead, well I can I just don't want to.
  Today we had someone come and look at the house and I was pretty excited about it but now I have this feeling that nothing is going to come out of it. I had a really good feeling all day today and for some reason now I don't have such a good feeling, maybe it's because they were only here for about 20 min. or it could of course be satan trying to sneak his way in and discourage me. I just get tired of trying to keep the house somewhat clean and pack and trying to keep my sanity and sometimes, it just doesn't work. As I was cleaning this morning I had to have a little pep talk to myself because I was starting to have a freak out moment, it's just difficult trying to keep everything in order and prepare to move to another town. Oh well, I know it'll all work out, right now I'm just in the middle of all the craziness and it doesn't seem like it's going to end but I know we'll be over there soon enough and all the craziness will be gone, well maybe it will be anyway ;)

  Today we went to Champaign to church because they did the final send off weekend for Ben & Tina. Ben did his final sermon and then he introduced to Peoria team, I think it was good for everyone to "meet" all the team members that we have so far, although we did miss Adam and Mandie. I have to say too that I definitely missed my Sullivan church family, we've only been to Champaign 2 times since we started going to Sullivan and I love the small, intimate setting of Sullivan. I feel like I missed out on something today but I guess I need to get used to it since we only have 3 Sundays left in Sullivan and we won't be able to come back every Sunday.
   The closer we get to moving the more excited I get, which is definitely a good thing. I know God has some amazing things in store for us and I'm so excited to see what they'll be. God has come through for us in every single way with this move, which is awesome, but we're still waiting on one more door to open and that's to sell our house. We have a showing tomorrow afternoon and I'm trying to not get to excited about it but it's really hard not too. We're starting to get a bit more action which is very exciting but I'm just ready for it to sell. I told Lamar tonight that I'm tired of spending hours cleaning the house and then having to take the kids and go hang out somewhere so someone can look at the house and then not have any offers. But I truly believe that God will open this door for us just like He's opened every other door in this whole process. Well hopefully I will have some great news on the house in a few days, if you think about just say a little prayer that the showing goes well and we'll get this house sold.

No More Negativity!

   So I just need to vent for a bit so please bear with me. Today I was at work and one of my co-workers was asking if we've sold the house, if we've had any bites on it, etc...I told her that things are starting to pick up. Well she proceeded to tell me that if someone makes an offer that they are going to try low-ball us, blah blah blah, and she was just being completely negative about the whole thing. I honestly just wanted to scream, it's like, can't you try and say something positive do you always have to be negative about everything. It just amazes me how some people can't even be happy for you, especially when you're doing something that God is asking you to do. Honestly, I just don't get it. Oh well, I just have to say that that's reason #86 why I'm so happy to be done working at Yoder's and to be moving out of this town. Sorry negative people just make me so angry.

Confirmation

So today we went to Peoria to finalize some things before we move, insurance, bank, school, etc..and we had a pretty great day. We did a final walk-through with the house and I have to say that if I had any doubts before moving I don't after today. I just felt some confirmation after we went through everything and it was such a good feeling. I'm starting to more and more excited about moving, I'm just not excited about the packing part;) So all in all it was a good day and I'm definitely excited to be moving.

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  Well I'm stumped as to what to blog about so this is what you get tonight. Enjoy!!!! :)

  Well throughout this journey I've found out a lot of things about myself, some things were good and some things were bad. And yes, today I found out one more thing about myself, I feel like part of me can't be truly happy that we're moving and I'm not sure why. Don't get me wrong, I'm super sad to be moving but I'm also really excited about this adventure that we're about to step into and for some reason, I feel like I just can't truly be happy. And I know that it's Satan trying to come in and mess everything up and it is so frustrating that he pulls crap like this, and I know I should be used to it by now because when we step out and do something that God has asked us to do then he's going to try and screw it up. I hate that I let satan get to me like that, he's such a sneaky little thing and I just want to punch him in the face. Ok I'm done now ;) So from now on, I am going to try my hardest to enjoy every moment I have before we move instead of thinking this is the last time I'll be going here or there or doing this or that. I know this is so lame but one of the things I'm most excited about moving is the fact that we can call out for pizza, chinese, or whatever and someone will deliever it. I know it's so lame but that's what happens when you grow up in a small town like Arthur, you get excited that there are actually restaurants that deliever food ;)

Enough with the emotions.

   Today as I was doing my devotions I realized that I'm dealing with a lot of fear right now. And it's pretty frustrating because I've tried and tried to pray it out of me but it just doesn't seem to work. I've cried out to God and sometimes it doesn't even seem like He's there, even though I know He really is. I know that this is a season of change and it's really hard for me to deal with the much change but honestly, I just want to say to myself to put my big girl panties on and suck it up. I am so tired of dealing with all these emotions I just want to be emotionless(if that's a word) for a while. I never know which Tanya I'm going to get that day, sometimes I'm super happy, other times I'm a ball full of tears, and sometimes I'm just completely numb/sober. Aaaaaggggghhhhh enough of these emotions already, sometimes I hate being a girl. Well all I can say is that I'm so glad that I have some pretty great friends that I can call/text/email anytime I just need some extra prayer.....so thanks ladies you all rock :)