Enough with the emotions.

   Today as I was doing my devotions I realized that I'm dealing with a lot of fear right now. And it's pretty frustrating because I've tried and tried to pray it out of me but it just doesn't seem to work. I've cried out to God and sometimes it doesn't even seem like He's there, even though I know He really is. I know that this is a season of change and it's really hard for me to deal with the much change but honestly, I just want to say to myself to put my big girl panties on and suck it up. I am so tired of dealing with all these emotions I just want to be emotionless(if that's a word) for a while. I never know which Tanya I'm going to get that day, sometimes I'm super happy, other times I'm a ball full of tears, and sometimes I'm just completely numb/sober. Aaaaaggggghhhhh enough of these emotions already, sometimes I hate being a girl. Well all I can say is that I'm so glad that I have some pretty great friends that I can call/text/email anytime I just need some extra prayer.....so thanks ladies you all rock :)