So as I sit hear trying to figure out what to blog about, I've decided that I'm going to blog about something that I've been struggling with lately, don't worry it's nothing to horrible ;) Well basically with everything that's going on in  the world, earthquakes, tsunami's(sp) and all this stuff it's very obvious that the end times are near. Now of course, it could still be another 20 years before God returns or it could be 20min. and my thing is am I actually ready for when He returns. Have I done enough and lived my life for Him? Have I given myself fully and completely over to Him? Or have I just not done enough because I really don't want to be left behind. I want God to look at me and say "well done my good and faithful servant." I just don't want to live in fear or be fearful of the unknown. I know that satan is just trying to come in and discourage me and make me question my christianity and I hate that I allow him to discourage me so that's when I just need some extra prayer. In my heart I do know where I'm going, I think it's just all the uncertainity of everything that's going on and  I just don't like uncertainity, just tell me what's going to happen and I'll be good ;) Although I know it doesn't work that way. I think maybe I have to much time on my hands and my mind just wanders, I think I need a hobby. Sometimes I wish I could just shut my mind off. Anyway, so that's what's on my mind today sorry for being such a "debbie downer"