Trying to find joy

  So today wasn't too bad, I finished unpacking my stuff in the bedroom and Lamar is finishing up stuff in his office so we are pretty well unpacked, I love that feeling. Now I'm kind of at a loss as what to do, I think I can only last about 1 week with not a whole lot to do but after that I will be going crazy. Anyway, so Carolyn called me today just to see how things were going and all that good stuff, I did have to fight back the tears as I was talking to her, it just seems so surreal that I'm here and all my peeps are 2 hrs. away. But anyway, after I got off the phone with Carolyn I was just thinking that I really need to find some joy because right now I feel like I don't have any joy at all. I want to be joyful no matter where I'm at and God has given Lamar and I this amazing opportunity and I don't want to let it get away from me. I know it's only been a few days since we've moved and yes, it's going to take a little bit to adjust but I want to also enjoy these first moments that we have here too and not continuously wish that I was back at home in Arthur. I just have to keep telling myself that this will get easier and yes, I will find friends to hang out with. I'll find ladies to have coffee with and go shopping with but until then, I will try to convince Lamar to sit and have coffee with me in the morning, even though he hates coffee. It's just hard for me to put myself out there and ask someone that I don't know that well if they want to come over for dinner or coffee or just to hang out but I know that's what I have to do if I want to make new friends. I am looking forward to going home in 2 weeks, that weekend can't come quick enough for me.