Confessing our Sins.

  Tonight we had our healing journey intensive class, we were actually supposed to have it last week but it got cancelled because of the weather. I had no idea what to expect because even though I've take the healing journey class before I had never been to the intensives. So basically it's more teaching and lots of writing but towards the end of the night we were talking about some of the things we struggle with, like anger, resentment, fear, approval and we had to take a minute to pray about it and see what God was telling us which one we struggle with the most and then we'll write some answers down and confess it as sin. Well, mine was anger, and I'm just going to be honest that I'm kind of an angry person so that didn't really shock me to much that God highlighted anger. So when we broke into our groups they told us that we'll be confessing this as a sin to each other and of course I'm thinking can I have a few more minutes to change what I wrote down because I don't want people to think I'm a big weirdo. The leader of our group said that sometimes when we get to this part as we're confessing our sin that people just start sobbing and some people just smile and some have no emotion but when it was my turn to read mine, it was almost more of a  liberating feeling. Like yes, I know this is a sin and I'm working on it and Satan you can't hold this over me anymore. Now I'm not saying that tomorrow I won't be crying about it but right now, I feel so free. As I was driving home thinking about tonight I had to ask myself, why is it so hard to confess our sins? Most of the time when we confess something you feel like this huge weight has been lifted but instead we choose to not talk about it and push everything down inside you, believe me I'm one of those people that likes to shove things down and not talk about it, but it's such a free feeling to know that you've confessed and it's out there and people are praying for you to get through this. I'm just so glad that I went tonight because I did think about skipping out but now I feel a bit more free and I feel like I'm finally getting somewhere with this healing process.