Breakthrough!!!!!

  Today I think I had my first major breakthrough with something that I've been dealing with for the last year or so. I've been incredibly angry about so many things that have gone on and I just didn't know how to deal with it. But as I was doing my healing journey homework this afternoon God showed me some of the things that I'm dealing with has to do with me not being able to let go of what happened with my family. It totally hit me like a ton of bricks when I read this paragraph, "The hurts and wounds we experienced, if left unprocessed, take on a life of their own and can actually affect how the brain secretes its hormones. This can cause depression, anxiety, insomnia, paranoia, headaches, arthritis, and other physical ailments." When I read this I was thinking that I have at least 4 of those symptons, now I'm not a hypocondrac(sp) but if you've read some of my previous posts then you know that I've been struggling with anxiety a lot.  I guess I didn't realized that if you don't deal with things then you can actually have physicaly ailments and it can just totally ruin you life and you'll can be a life filled with bitterness and anger. And I just want to say that I don't want to be filled with all this bitterness and anger, I want to be happy and filled with complete joy and be happy with everything that God has blessed me with. And believe me, He's blessed me a lot and I want to soak it all up and be happy again.