Yesterday I went to bible study and a friend of mine told me that she needed to talk to me about something. Of course I'm immediately thinking the worst, like what did I do, did I say something that I shouldn't have, I was about to drive myself crazy. Well she was able to come over last night and she was actually telling me about some dreams that she had been having about our friendship. Basically what she was getting from the dream is that I was trying to push her away and I didn't really want to have anything to do with her. Well as we went on talking I realized that I was pushing her away, it's not like I was doing it on purpose but I know that the closer we get to moving the harder it's going to be, so in my subconcious(sp) mind I started pushing her away so maybe it wouldn't be so hard when we actually do move. I told her that I don't want to push anyone away because all my friends mean the world to me but sometimes that's just how I cope with things, when I know that it's going to be hard I try to take myself out of the equation. I told her that I should be loving every single minute I spend with my friends and not think about the fact that we're leaving in 9 weeks. So I have decided that whenever I spend time with my friends from now until we move, I will cherish all the time we spend together and I will be taking lots of pictures(don't say I didn't warn you). Yes I know I sound like we're moving across the country rather then 2 hrs. away. I know this time that I have left here in good ol' Arthur is going to go by way to fast so I'm going to try really hard to just love every minute of it.