Prayer is an amazing thing.

  Well this last week has been a very weird week for me. I've been struggling with anxiety in a bad way, and let me tell you it's not fun. As I was talking to Lamar about it last night a few things came up as to what's causing it and one of the reasons was that  maybe we're not supposed to be moving to Peoria and it's just God's way of telling me. I had also mentioned that maybe it's because moving is becoming more of a reality then just "talking" about it. We're starting to move forward with the move and it's pretty scary. Anyway, we continued talking and I had to leave for Revolution and he prayed with me before I left and I did feel a lot better. Well when I got there I was talking to Doug Overmeyer and I told him what was going on and he said that he wanted to pray with me after Revolution. So during ministry time some kids/adults shared some words and I just started crying and I couldn't stop, which I kind of felt rediculous because Revolution is all about the teens not the adults. When it was time to pray for each other Doug came over and said that I think we need to pray for you right now, so he and Julie Mast prayed for me. And as they were praying for me I realized 2 major things, the first was that I have a lot of fear, which I think is valid. I mean, I've never lived anywhere else but Arthur so of course I'm going to be a little fearful and we're going to be experiencing all kinds of new things, so yeah, kind of scary. And the 2nd thing I realized was that I'm excited to go for all the wrong reasons. There's so many things that I'm excited to get away from and I'm ready for a new start, but I wasn't excited that God actually chose Lamar and I to go on this exciting journey. I really wasn't putting God in the equation at all. Now that I realize these things and I can actully pray against the fear I think it will shed a whole new light on this journey.