Healing Journey

 I started healing journey yesterday at church and I have to say that I'm pretty excited about going through this course for a 2nd time. The first time I went, I was so overwhelmed by everything that it was really hard to focus on "healing" those parts of my life. Anyway, so they have you do this genogram of your family(like what addictions, mental illness, just stuff like that that runs in your family) Well as I was working on this last night I remembered that I still had the one from the previous healing journey that I attended and I decided to pull it out and just see if it's any different then what I was working on. And honestly, it was quite different I even had to show Lamar about how different it was. It's amazing to me how a few years can change so many things, now obviously most of it stayed the same, but I think that depending on where you're at in your life you see and realize a lot more things, it was really interesting. Anyway, so in this class they also ask you to pray about some things that you should be fasting while taking this course. And I have to say that I was a little surprised/shocked/embarrassed by the first thing that God had asked me to fast, I didn't really think that I had a huge problem with this particular thing but the more I thought about it the more I realized that maybe I do. And honestly it's a little embarrassing, I mean I know that alcoholism runs in my family but I really didn't think I had a problem with it. I mean I can go weeks without it and be totally fine but when I do have a drink, it sometimes ends up being more then I probably should have. But I really feel that this is what God wants me to do so I'm going to do it and I know that He has asked me to fast alcohol for a reason. And of course, right now I miss it because it's something I can't have and it would be the same with a cheeseburger, if God asked me to fast cheeseburgers I would be craving one right now. It's so weird how that works, you always want what you can't have. I'm also fasting a few other things and it's things that I absolutely love to do but I think I can do this for 10 weeks considering all that God has done for us. And I know after these 10 weeks are up I'm going to be a much better person and I know that I'll have lots to share about what God has shown me or what He has done in my life. I know that the next 10 weeks are not going to be easy because I'm going to come face to face with some pretty difficult things. I also know that satan does not want me to get past some of my issues so I'm asking for prayer against any attacks and to stay strong in the next 10 weeks.